Saturday, December 28, 2013

I'm back?

Oh my god, yesterday I ate like normal person (without the meat), and holy crap, did I feel like crap last night.  And that wasn't the first time.  I've done that at least 5 times during this holiday season.  And before too.  And, surprise, I've gained weight.  Even a few bad days a month derails me from my weight goals.  I saw a great analogy the other day:  It's like working at a full-time job and not getting paid for it!  I put in all those good days and then ruin it with a bad day. But the worst part is feeling like crap when I go off plan.  My body is not used to high-fat foods.  The burps are the worse!   I know, too much information.

So I'm back blogging, maybe (I never know for sure), for a few reasons:  One is that I have a big backpacking adventure planned for next fall and there is no way I can do it at my age and lack of natural born athletic ability without a healthy diet in addition to the exercise.  Another is that I think my own blog will support my goals better right now than the online forums I'm a member of.  I'm not sure why exactly.  For one thing, the forums just get me thinking too much about rich foods and recipes I don't need to eat on a daily basis.  and I know how to eat this way so I don't need the forums as an educational tool.  I do feel I should provide support to others if I can, but I also feel that right now as I struggle myself, who am I to provide advice to others?   Well, I know we support each other, struggling or not.  I can't really explain why I feel like going into myself for strength rather than a community.  I also want to spend  more of my free time in pursuits other than food.  And that goes for my social time too.

So I'm thinking of just hanging out with myself for a while (diet wise) and logging my boring food, which I can't imaging anyone else would want to eat, and that's okay because I'm not trying to promote a diet to anyone else.  Of course, if no one wants to eat this way, no one will want to read the blog and that is okay too.  It still makes me feel a little more accountable than keeping a private journal, and I enjoy writing it.


trish said...

I am glad you're back! I, too, have eaten too much of the wrong food - what is it about being with family that bring out my desire to "fit in"? I have been SO good all fall (mostly greens, stir-fried vegetables & my homemade bread occasionally) but in the past 3 or 4 weeks I've flirted with the SAD diet & my head/body is screaming at me, "No, no, no!" I'm not sure why some people can eat what they want & not "feel" differently (or for that matter, why I could when I was overweight-maybe I "always" felt this bad & figured it was just "me") Anyway, thanks for returning - you really inspire me each morning when I check my computer before work. I'm glad you're back & may 2014 keep us both on the diet that works best for us.

Ines said...

I like reading your posts. Great insigts, boring food and all.

kneecap said...

thanks for your comments! trish, we're social creatures. plus, that stuff is hard to resist. haha, Ines, yes, definitely boring food.